I am in a sad place and i guess that is why im back here writing it all down again. It seems to help when i can write it down and reflect on it later. Still split, still un-happy, still not knowing wot the hell i am doing!!! I know i will never be back with hubby and i know i made the right decision. He knows it too and has turned on the nasty tap....god how cruel he is, a side i have never seen, a side that is just damn right nasty!
Im a slag, a whore, a bad mother....words that have cut me like a razor through my wrists. I dont know if im upset because he thinks so little of me after giving him 15 yrs of my life and 3 beautiful children, or if its because what he says is true?
Am i a slag...i feel disgusted at my self, words he used only the other day!!
My insides are turning over making me feel sick, when will this feeling go away.......