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The Time Ive Been Away From amanda32 in me & myself (381 days old)

Well the term, "up and down" has certainly been my life for the past few months! Seperated from my hubby and now waiting for a devorce i am utterly drained, both mentally and emotionally...can it get … more
i wanna kill some one From amanda32 in me & myself (501 days old)

I have got to write...i need to get my anger under control, maybe this is gonna help. I wanna rip someones fuckin head off, jesus i wanna explode. How dare my EX call me the most disgustin names an… more
Im Back!! From amanda32 in me & myself (502 days old)

I am in a sad place and i guess that is why im back here writing it all down again. It seems to help when i can write it down and reflect on it later. Still split, still un-happy, still not knowing wo… more
The Games Up! From amanda32 in me & myself (575 days old)

Ok my emotions are up and down the same as my blog has been just lately. My marriage is over, he has gone, i am relieved in one sense but terrified i may have just made the biggest mistake in my life… more
All Confused? From amanda32 in me & myself (576 days old)

My husband is back!! Good thing.......i really do not know. I had it all worked out in my mind how things were going to be, but as per usual nothing i do ever goes to plan!! He came home for his t… more
Its All Over!! From amanda32 in me & myself (579 days old)

Ok my marriage has been strained for a long time and it has finally snapped, finished, ended!!! Its my decision and it has been waiting to be made for a while. I know I'm relieved in a sense but hell … more
kids at school From amanda32 in me & myself (584 days old)

OK easter holidays over, kids back to school....yippee!! Is it just me that gets hugely hormonal and hits the self destruct button when the kids are home, jesus talk about blow-in a friggin gasket. I… more
hi blog land From amanda32 in me & myself (585 days old)

Well where to start......everything that could be turned upside down in my life has been!! If you have read my earlier blogs you will know i have been through a kind of midlife crisis...still going … more
Babes early arrival.... From amanda32 in me & myself (620 days old)

Well a lot has happened while i been away.... my sister-in-law has had my nephew 10 wks premature, he weighed a good 31b-9oz though. He is in special baby care but doing well. He has been named, Clayt… more
Holiday Dream From amanda32 in me & myself (621 days old)

What a fantastic week i have just had.....Centre Parcs in Nottingham is so kool!! :yes: If you havent been then get yourself there, its good for kids and older folk alike. The sun even shone, kids w… more
Harrassed And Bored Of It!!!!! From amanda32 in me & myself (622 days old)

:wave:Ok this Adam Antics thing is really getting boring now, but a certain Babooshka (and several other names she goes by) just cannot help herself from commenting on MY blog! This i couldent give a … more
Oh Shit! From amanda32 in me & myself (627 days old)

Well what turns my life keeps taking. I am on the verge of being divorced this morning because of some content on my computer, been found by my 12 year old daughter. God, why did she snoop, h… more
Wankers At Work From amanda32 in me & myself (628 days old)

To say I'm pissed off is an understatement!!!! Why is it managers in general are totally shit at managing?? I have just had the most unproductive, money wasting, shit instructions ever..... Why wou… more
Aww Im Pooly From amanda32 in me & myself (633 days old)

God am i cursed or sometin lol?? :roll: I woke up this am to find i have got a virus which is goin round. Symptoms include sore throat, sniffles, head ache and very annoying itchy ears!! :oops: I ma… more
Out Of Control From amanda32 in me & myself (634 days old)

This weekend was nearly the end of everything.......and i know i am lucky to be alive! After a totally shit uneventful Friday night i again got totally wrecked. After half a bottle of whisky and a bo… more
fridayfeelin From amanda32 in me & myself (636 days old)

Well i cannot believe how fast the week has gone, and it is friday already! I wish i was going out, i love getting dressed up. Doing my hair, applying my makeup, making myself feel like a sexy vixen. … more
Peace At Last From amanda32 in me & myself (640 days old)

My house has never been so quiet!! The kids are all out playing with friends and making the most of a nice sunny day..... I have just got back in from a walk with the dog and have crashed onto the se… more
From amanda32 in me & myself (641 days old)

I need to stay positive, that's my problem, I'm so bloody bothered by what other people think of me! Anyway why do i care, what does it matter? This comes from my mum, my sisters are just the same! Wh… more
The Morning After........ From amanda32 in me & myself (642 days old)

It is 2pm and i have been up a little over an hour! I feel sick, have sore feet, and a banging headache. Self inflicted ? Yes. I should have been working today, but i just couldent go as i am too hun… more
What A Wonderful Day From amanda32 in me & myself (645 days old)

Too nice to stay inside when the sun is shining so bright, funny how a little sunshine can make you feel so happy! The dog needs walking but today i will enjoy it ..........My son is being much nic… more
Who Is Adam Antixx?? From amanda32 in me & myself (646 days old)

I came on here today to find i have been the target of some sick joke?? I am accused of being an alias for some Adam Antixx Whoever he, she is?? I write a blog which i thought was an informative one … more
Dog Fighting The Truth From amanda32 in me & myself (646 days old)

Please read blog below to see the most upsetting facts and disturbing pictures of the illegal fighting dogs....................… more
The Cruel Truth.....disturbing pics! From amanda32 in me & myself (648 days old)

I have just watched a panorama documentary on the wicked world of dog fighting. I was moved to tears and sickened by what i saw, totally unprepared by the utter inhuman and monstrous men who actuall… more
Love IT! From amanda32 in me & myself (648 days old)

Hope u all had a wicked wk end i did!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx… more
Happy Again...... So f**k U Depression! From amanda32 in me & myself (649 days old)

I have had a complete turn around with my mood, i couldn't feel better. I am happy and i am me once more. :yes: Funny though cos instead of being optimistic about staying this way, i have a secre… more
A whole lot a nothing... From amanda32 in me & myself (653 days old)

I find for the first time in ages, well ever, i have nothing to say! Anyone who knows me would be, "right yeah, you nothing to say?!" I find I'm being untrue to myself at the moment, i don't know wh… more
Good Morning... From amanda32 in me & myself (654 days old)

After the usual madness of a monday morning i have been able to have a little me time, yes and its good. Took Gaff (the dog) with me on the school run. I was a little apprehensive leaving him in the … more
LCD or PLASMA???? From amanda32 in me & myself (655 days old)

I am amid buying a new tv, but am struggling with which is best, PLASMA or LCD? :??: I have been researching the differences and it seems that it just comes down to personal opinions! After readin… more
Hung over From amanda32 in me & myself (655 days old)

God how shit i feel today. Went on works annual dinner and it was fantastic! Bar was bloody expensive though! How can these places get away with robbing us like that? I really hate feeling ripped off,… more
BARBIE BEAUTY!!!!!!! From amanda32 in me & myself (656 days old)

After feeling shit at my weight gain, i didnt think i could hate my body image any more!!!! Thats until i stumbled on this.....yuk...looks painful! Made me think twice..... … more